Me [35 M] with my gf [39 F] of 10 years. She has ongoing skin condition and says worms are crawling in her skin. Don't know what to do anymore.

Skin condition started soon after moving to a new house. Was a house that was uninhabited for a period - had some insects and mold etc. She has a lot of underlying anxiety issues and in general struggles with life. Shortly after move-in she got a few big boil type things. Went to doctor at my instance and they didn't really offer any advice.

After that new skin irritations kept cropping up. Dozens of visits to hospitals and doctors. Has taken every medication and cream including anti-parasitics, inter-venous antibiotics, etc. Has been kicked out of two different hospitals by security for going in and insisting for more medicine and acting erratic and refusing to leave until they give her the medication she has decided she needs.

I work a lot, I try to avoid home as much as possible. I'm terrified to come home. Almost everyday i find her crouched in the bathroom with bloody tweezers in her hand pulling worms out of her skin and looking at them with a magnifying glass. Usually sobbing, crying, yelling, etc. I bought a microscope three months ago, have spent countless hours with her, never can see what she is seeing. If I engage at all it never ends. she yells at me for not being able to see the worms. always middle of the night is when she wants to go to the ER.

Her entire medical team front the start has diagnosed her as mental problem and think she is causing the wounds. She thinks they are "covering their ass b/c they know they fucked up". I know the condition is coming from somewhere, she is not the initial cause, i also know there are no worms crawling out of her skin, and that she is making the problem worse by pulling her skin apart with tweezers and constantly putting weird things on it.

she often breaks down and talks about wanting to die. she hasn't left the house for i don't know how long. the house is a DISASTER. every object in the house is strewn about, piles of "samples" everywhere, bloody tissues, trash, etc. I can hardly walk through.

she grew up upper middle class, her parents live right nearby. we live in an nice town near a major city with the best hospitals in the World.

she refuses to leave the house. when we moved she insisted on keeping a room in the city so she would have somewhere "clean" to go and shower etc. she has never gone in a year. i paid something like $30,000 in rent for a 2nd home for nothing. she wont seek mental help at all the doctors advice. she says they are all out to get her, are treating her bad, are covering their asses. says they fucked up and want to peg her as crazy so it's not their fault.

i am desperate. i don't know what to do. the outcomes i see are her killing herself, or me calling 911 and telling strange men with guns to enter our house and drag her naked, kicking and screaming to a psych ward.

i don't know what to think anymore. i fear she is right and i am doubting her and thinking her crazy like everyone else while she suffers. i know something is causing it, i don't think it is "worms", i think the undiagnosed condition has pushed her over the edge, but i don't think she made it all up. i just wish she would leave the house at least for a week to see if it helps. but she hasn't. and now we literally can't anymore.

what the fuck do i do.

tl;dr: Partner has bad skin condition, is convinced worms have infected her skin, it's a disaster and i am reaching the limits of my own sanity now even more trapped with pandemic going on.

Submitted April 04, 2020 at 07:02PM by IamSOfuckinProductiv https://ift.tt/2x329pf